It is true that post partum is very hard to understand and very hard to explain. After my first child, I was riving down the road one day and thought, I should drive my car off of this overpass. I don't know why I thought it. The thought wasnt' even about dying, just a strange thought.I had never thought of anything like it before but, it scared me and I immediately got help. I was diagnosed with severe postpartum depression. Often, the women have a sudden impulse but, if they do not act on it, they realize the horror of it. I think they are afraid to get help when they start haivng these thoughts. But, I also think that it is overused as an excuse. Some people are just evil. It sickens me.